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i miss u so

my dearest sis

my closest dearest sis
u left today
i didnt know i'll miss u so much
pardon me for not seeing u off
i dont want to spoil ur mood
i'll certainly miss u dearly

as i played the piano wen u left, every song reminded me of ur laughter, the joy we had mocking each other.... laughin at mr bean and watchin sean the sheep...kim possible ur must watch show... stupid and lame songs we made..sharing with each other the funny incidents we had in school...waking u up so tt u wont snore tt loud >< ... u using the piano as a reflection wen u watch ghost shows... =) leechin each others' exp in maple...

i miss u so. its like its been forever till u have gone. pls come back home.

Im better off on my own

my results

done badly.... dont ask and remind me if u can... sorry lee ping... i just dont like it wen im feeling so down and u keep asking how i did.. it was just badly done k?

I donno what went wrong.. i really dont.. well i know i deserve it for chem but whyy A math???? whyyyyyy?????

Haven get back my eng results yet. and chinese o lvls is like a week away....save me anyone!!! pls...

Just So You Know

results

its tomorrow .....!!!!! hahz so far i know on the whole, my class did badly for chem: 'did u girls study?' ... E math paper 2 : teachers still having trouble marking cos our workings are all over the place. SS ( for me only) : my mind went blank during the exam. Physics: ' 3 ppl passed section A'. Bio: it was so difficult i was practically guessing thru the whole paper.

so far i know:
phy mcq 17/20 (hehe top)
E math paper 1 72.5%

i'll know the rest tomorrow =D hopefully i can have a gd weekend hahaz.

...

the wall builds up between us.
there's not much i can find to hold on too
just the memories of fun and joy we had.
but it has all faded away...broken into pieces.
its beyond redemption.
what i wish now is to be able to forget u and live life again.
its not an easy task but u taught me all these.
u were not there when i needed you so dont expect me to be there when u need me to.
because it takes two hands to clap
and the repeated cuts on my wound will never heal again.
you never knew me, u never did and you never will.
the heart once ever so kind and sociable has hardened
i warned you it will, but u always take things lightly.
promises were never kept but i still tried to trust u again and again
now i realise im wasting my time
because you were never there.... you will never be.
i just wanna be me for once.

none

it all ends today.
exams are over.
lost a very important fren too.
painful but i guess its gd for both of us.
dont wanna commit myself to any close frens anymore.
i dont have the energy to do that.
neither will i try any harder, becos the harder i try the worst it gets.
casual chats are better than deep sharing.
becos we will take things lightheartedly and no one will be hurt in the process.

whom should i share my thoughts with now?
whom should i go to in times of need?
whom should i share my joy and sorrow wif?
Who will be there?

-none-
at least not anymore.
thanks for reminding me this.

the light

the light is fading,
darkness fills the empty space.
alone you stand in fear,
wishing someone will walk you through.
But the more u hope
the greater the disappointment.

the battle

feel stressed... exams are like soooo near.. im not prepared and i dont wish to take the battle alone. But life still goes on... no one's gonna wait for those who arnt prepared... they just have to face the battle and attempt to fight their way through. But what do you get at the end of the battle? you either get 1) well done girl... u can do better 2) wats wrong? u didnt study? why didnt u study? seeeeee...... play too much la! tts why....

whatever it is... i am gonna face the battle tomorrow. And i guess i'll be alright... maybe...

...you...

it was you who made me like this, and its you who filled 50% of my time... yet its you again who made the other half of my time horrible... and now.. i just wish u would banish from my world..and never step into my life ever again...

thoughts

My grandfather is gonna have a bypass op tomorrow. My dad left yesterday for the states. The house feels empty. I hope my grandfather will be able to put his 100% trust in the lord and not worry about the operation. well, im still in the midst of learning to trust the lord fully.

Fought with x...didnt expected it to happen but yea it did..oh wells... it was partially my fault. but i really felt happy when i decided not to be x's friend anymore... its like finally taking off the mask i wore for years.

'frens'

A was such a friend she/he treasured someone else more whom he/she barely know for a week. B was such a fren he/she started ignoring me wen i needed help. C was such a fren.. he/she made promises but never kept them.

I wish to thank glenda and gayu and xue rong and jia li and lee ping and shi jie for being such great frens. They brought joy to my life! As for A,B and C and the many others i chose not to remember.. i wish you understand that this is mutual and dont expect me to treat you nice or pretend it didnt happen. Cos it did.

Holidays

on the surface... yes it is the holidays.... deep beneath it isnt. How can this be the holidays wen we have normal school on mon and tues, Have tons of homework and .... i really pity those in PFA ccas... they have to go to school almost everyday... well ya.. it is everyday except for sunday... sighs.. dont we deserve a break?

my best fren

JESUS u are my best fren
and u will always be
nothing will ever change that!

God thank you for being there for me.
I'm so glad u're in my life =)
you are my everything.

Frens

made nice frens in class.... glenda and gayu brightens my day! =) we get high almost everyday ^^. yups.. we sang songs and did stupid things... but at least we enjoyed. This will be what i'd miss most wen i leave sac.